So Christmas came early this year. I am so full of…the only word
I can think of is happy. Like if I smile for 2 more seconds I’ll be setting
some kind of record, happy. I’ve kind of been wondering how to write this one
for a while. Aaaaand I still don’t really know how so…I hope you were one of
those weird kids in elementary school who liked “Chef’s Surprise’ day.
Here’s the thing: I’ve been worrying and worrying about what
I’m going to do with my life. I love my major more and more every day, exercise
is my passion and I adore the things I’ve been learning about over the years, but
I don’t know how to put all of that into a career. Even if I did, I’ll never
be very good at the whole ‘competitive business world’ thing. There’s always
someone smarter, someone more professional, or someone who looks like less of a
freak when they do Zumba. (For the record, if I had it my way, no one would
have a job and we’d just barter with gum wrappers and other things I could find
on the ground, but whatever.) I’ve been frustrated because I feel
like the Lord keeps saying, “It doesn’t matter what you do. Just do good things.”
Um, yeah but…WHAT DO I DO? I can’t put food on the table with smiles and “one
free back massage” coupons.
EXCEPT. Good news. J
I think I finally figured it out. A job will come eventually. I know how to
work hard, I have the knowledge I need, and things have a way of working out.
But at the end of the day, I’m not here just to get a fabulous job and make
tons of money. (Although, if that’s a dibs thing…dibs.) I’m here to prove that
I can live a life full of ‘good things’. Make life easier for the kid sitting
next to me right now, because he needs me. Smile to remind him that life is a beautiful thing because then he'll smile back and I’ll remember it too. Be happy when I come home at the end of the day, even
if I’m a little stressed. Cut it out with stupid Monday blues. Who has time
for that anyways? Turn wherever I am into the happiest place in the world. The
answer to my question is still, “It doesn’t matter what you do. Just do good things.” The difference is, now I know what that means! I just have to live my life. This is going to be so fun!
Like I said, this was basically just a “Kelli wants to tell
you guys how happy she is so you can be too but she doesn’t really know how”
session so…that’s pretty much it. I just figure, if
the Lord’s still putting breath into these little lungs, I should probably make
sure that every day I’m using it for something important.
Love, Kelli
P.S. Sorry to you people who thought my blog was just going to be a couple of dorky one-liners every once in a while. Oopsie!